dearsethcohen (dearsethcohen) wrote in whatsyourmix,

I hurt myself today
A mix cd

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A mix full of songs that remind me of self-destruction.

01. The Dresden Dolls - Bad Habit
Biting keeps your words at bay
Tending to the sores that stay
Happiness is just a gash away
When I open a familiar scar
Pain goes shooting like a star
Comfort hasn't failed to follow so far

And you might say it's self-indulgent
You might say its self-destructive
But, you see, it's more productive
Than if I were to be healthy

And pens and penknives take the blame
Crane my neck & scratch my name
But the ugly marks
Are worth the momentary gain
When I jab a sharpened object in
Choirs of angels seem to sing
Hymns of hate in memorandum

And you might say it's self-indulgent
And you might say it's self-destructive
But, you see, it's more productive
Than if I were to be happy

And sappy songs about sex and cheating
Bland accounts of two lovers meeting
Make me want to give mankind a beating

And you might say it's self-destructive
But, you see, I'd kick the bucket
Sixty times before I'd kick the habit

And as the skin rips off I cherish the revolting thought
That even if I quit
There's not a chance in hell I'd stop

And anyone can see the signs
Mittens in the summertime
Thank you for your pity, you are too kind

And you might say its self-inflicted
But you see that's contradictive
Why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?

And pain opinions are sitcom feeding
They dont know that their minds are teething
Makes me want to give mankind a beating

I'm tried bandages and sinking
I've tried gloves and even thinking
I've tried vaseline
I've tried everything
And no-one cares if your back is bleeding
They're concerned with their hair receding
Looking back it was all maltreating
Every thought that occurred misleading

Makes me want to give myself a beating

02. Majandra Delfino - Bruises
I can't stop thinking about cutting myself up
Visual bruises can be covered in makeup
But down to the core I'm all bruises
My little whore gives this excuses

03. The Honorary Title - Snow Day
These confrontations puncture the skin
Reveal evidence that you're easily broken
You're so easily broken
Exposed and relentlessly bleeding from the cracks
At that age where everything's seemingly life or death

04. Beth Hart - Leave the Light On
17 and I'm all messed up inside
I cut myself just to feel alive
I leave the light on
I leave the light on
21 on the run
On the run
On the run
From myself
From myself and everyone
I leave the light on
I leave the light on

05. The Good Life - Night and Day
I know a girl with cuts on her legs
I think that she hates the way she was made
But we never spoke of why they were there
I just squeezed them and kissed them
Until we both felt a bit better

And now I've returned to the town where she dwells
That cold lonely cabin her grandfather built
I suppose that's where she's imprisoned herself
To write all those words she's too scared to tell
Those sad, short stories of a girl curled up in her shell

06. Foo Fighters - Razor
Wake up it's time
Need to find a better place to hide
Make up, your mind
I need to know
I need to know tonight

Sweet and devine
Razor of mine
Sweet and devine
Razor blade shine

07. Nine Inch Nails - Hurt
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real

08. Plumb - Cut
I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
No I don't wanna die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything
Kills inside

I do not wanna be afraid
I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when I am cut

09. The Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism
You can tell
From the scars on my arms
And cracks in my hips
And the dents in my car
And the blisters on my lips
That I'm not the carefullest of girls

10. Counting Crows - Black & Blue
Cut your hands
Cut yourself until you bleed
Fall asleep next to me

Wait for everyone to go away
And in a dimly lit room where
You've got nothing to hide
Say your goodbyes
Tell yourself we'll read
A note that says I'm sorry everyone
I'm tired of feeling nothing

11. Smile Empty Soul - Self-Inflicted
These cuts and bruises are all self inflicted
And I wont let myself be happy
I cut myself just to feel the pain

12. Motion City Soundtrack - The Future Freaks Me Out
Betty can’t quit
Carving question marks in my wrist
How come we’re so alone
We waste away the days
With nicotine and television samples
From an era we hate to admit we embrace
We fail to represent
We fail to be content
We fail at everything we ever even try to attempt

13.The Honorary Title - Anything Else but the Truth
Glass shatters with an unsteady grip
No chance to catch the blood as it comes rushing in
Too quickly pumping out from the inside
Dripping into the patterns strewn across my thigh

Each drop spreads and spells out a passage
Soon I'll reclaim this dull history
The seamstress weaves in the stitches
But re-opens that same memory

14. Foo Fighters - All My Life
Will I find something in there
To give it just what it needs
Another reason to bleed
One by one, Hidden up my sleeve

15. Dashboard Confessional - If You Can't Leave It Be, Might as Well Make It Bleed
What you found sure upset you
Never saw it coming,did you?
It's easy to be suprised with both your eyes sewn closed
Handled with great precision
Another faultless execution
You're the subject of this exhibition
A willing cadaver, a willing cadaver
Scalpelled, sutured, made whole again
These cuts are leaving creases
Trace the scars to fit the pieces
To tell your story, you don't need to say a word
Call off the cavalry
Can't save a wretch like me
Clean this with kerosene
If you can't leave it be, might as well make it bleed

16. Sia - Breathe Me
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

17. Johnny Cash - Hurt
I hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing thats real

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